Work in Progression...

I got loads of things in my mind at the moment..

New project..undergoing..many ideas but not enough time and resources..
I wish i have a creative bone in me..and i really wish i'm tech savvy i tell ya..

As for work...sigh, wish i'm could be a little be more appreciated and challenged..
I'm getting bored..especially today, when u work on a Saturday..

What's ur flava, tell me what's MY flava...

Yes that Craig Davis's song is in my head..

In 2 days, I've asked 3 people what do they think my style is.. I couldn't for the life of me figure out who I am..
Kak Noor (my lovely shrink) said I've lost myself in the 10 years I've decided to have a relationship with my other half..but to not know my own style? I not sure how I've been portraying myself over the years..

My other half says u're always in this; pointing at my jeans and t shirt i was wearing that night.. ye la..goes to show how tentative u r to my clothes.

My best friend of 10 years said; short hair and soft fabrics that moves when the wind blows..errr okay..

My good friend who works and actually sees me almost everyday says; flowery skirts, polka dots and ribbon headband.. errr okay...

So errr who am I again?? help :(

I WANT THIS FROM TOPSHOP!

Lurex Skate Dress :
soooo Jess aka Zoey Dechanel in New Girl ..
only imagine it in red..

Sometime after our degree way back when we were in Dublin, my very lucky best-est best friend  Rhea K got a job with Arcadia Group..just to be specific..the Topman at G Floor, Jervis shopping centre.. She had the time of her life working there..meeting people, socializing with the customers, making friends within the Group and most important of all dressing up. She a bit creative when it comes to clothes..dare to be bold I might add..the job suits her well, topshop suits her personality really really well.. She use to 'have-to-buy' 3 item from the latest collection every season..4 season in a year..it's a headache when ur in love with everything in the shop. Whenever she's off duty the changing room will be where we spent most of our weekends..and it was the best, playing dresses up, trying on dresses and tops that u can only imagine..Being a good friend that she is and ( she still is the best!) i get the benefit of taking her staff discount in advance..hahah sorry to rat u out babe, but everybody does it right... the number of tops i bought from u..the jackets..ooh that lovely winter jacket which I still have in my closet..the jeans..love it! better cutting from Levis...and shoes, u just got to love the shoes and boots..sigh wish u still work there and we're both still in Dublin giggling our head off in our old apartment..
Anyways, this entry is dedicated for u babe and also for Joyce, hehehe let me reminisce my Topshop memories please!

BFFs

There are just some people of  all the many people u'll come across in your life that you would just connect with..
I got my SJians babes + 1 dude who even though we only meet up once a year, the conversation never seems to  be boring or never ends. It's as if we were still at the SJ canteen or bilik pengawas haha..
PC..i have few good frens..but it's a place that i will never take myself back..memories of the good things that happened was all surpassed by the bad thing that happened. The last time I was there was really the last time I'll ever step my foot at that place. It was just not a good place for me..
YPM and Eire.. my girls who are my sisters.. the things that we went through hahaha nobody could ever understands it.. possessed by ghost, thieves, back stabbers, boyfriends and scandals hahaha only those who went through it believe it..
Losing a best friend is hard, for 10 years we were always each other's place to rant..at least for me it was.. sharing every single thing, every little details, dreams and hope..sad is not even the word to describe what I am feeling these days..i think i've become a bitter person, with no trust nor believes in the institution anymore.. i really need to recover from these, dont want the angels to grow up to be bitter as well..
Anyways, my point is..i just won myself 4 movie tickets and I have no girlfriends to go out with..everybody's so busy nowadays and my closest friends are all over the globe..not even the same continent!
Moral of the story: i need to get a life huhu

Girly girl..

I don't need words for this post..

Walking in Unity - Sole Of The Nation 29 March - 1 April 2012 Venue : PWTC Kuala Lumpur

source: http://www.malaysiafootwear.com/index.php

values and reflections..

deep isn't it? the tittle..

something i've always ponder upon..how a person is today, is a reflection of their upbringing..but there are bad people out there, very bad people..and i believe their parents didn't raise them to be bad..it's just sometimes the circumstances and peer pressure that made one person made the all the wrong choices..

My point is, 75% of the time, we are who our family brought us up to be..Does this sentence even make sense haha..the way we look at life, the things we consider important, the values we try to instate to our children, the way we treat other people..

a few things that I've been brought up with and I think I should teach my children:
1. Always eat together..no matter if your not hungry, too busy, your fighting with your mom/hubby..always, always, sit down and eat together(not every meal duhh) at least for dinner..
2. Always be ahead of time, when I was in PC there's a saying that the headmaster always said..when ur on time, ur late..
3. Always keep your promise, I know this is a hard one..sometimes u just can't avoid it but at least be apologetic and give a reason. At least the other person won't feel so frustrated.
4. Never go to bed angry..in one way or another we have to settle things then and there, heads on, no hard feeling and then can only matters be bygone..(hmm somehow, sadly.. this I can never achieve with Mr A..)...

enuff said..

working on a saturday..

it's no longer relevant working on Saturday these days..
seriously the employee do more harm than good coming to the office on a Saturday..
especially today, the weather's nice and it's just before the busy month end week..

owh..and apparently I can acssess to facebook after 9am today...hmmmm..nuff said.

Green-eyed?

So I stayed up pretty late one  night. I wanted to watch Victoria Secret 2011 runway show (HD & in full) on youtube..and I ain't watching it with the hubs..so i waited till he was snoring, put on the earphones and watch it..
Yup, other than the fact that I was jealous of the girls that was walking on the runway..I was amazed with Miranda Kerr..another angel, who manage to gave birth, breast feed and still be a gorgeous angel..my kind of hero, someone to look up to..her and Heidi Klum and her 4 kids and KLS, entrepreneur with the hectic life but still able to make time to breastfeed..so for that matter, i will persevere and push away the i-wanna-give-up feeling..

On the other note, I got a pretty exciting bbm from a pretty excited girl..who bought a pretty exciting thing..yes, i'm happy for ya..nope, not going to the shop, not even to cuci mata..so stop telling about the things that are in the shop sigh..sigh..sigh..

Save the cheerleader, save the world!

I'm my own cheerleader these days..Due to the fact that I'm very wary of those who are around me.. Don't know to what extend they are willing to listen or help.. I'm sorry, it's just that the recent incident traumatize me..

At the moment, i'm finding comfort in strangers or rather looking at other people who doesn't really relate to my daily life.. That gas station worker who handed me that pack of tissue - he is one I shall remember for the rest of my life. My comforting ice cream session with a fellow office mate - It makes me forget about the problem I have even just for an hour a day :)

I'm looking for that 'there's must be a reason for this' in everything and hope that I can stay positive all the time, for the sake or my kids and family, I just have to be..

So, to anybody who happen to come across this post, chin up, there's always a better day..
Mind over matters & load of prayers..
InsyaAllah..

tick tock goes the clock..

There's so many things that I can associate to the tittle..

One being, tick tock waiting for the clock to hit 12noon so that I can get home to the 2 angels..

next, tick tock..it 53 min into the office hour..here comes my-usually-MIA-supervisor..

then, tick tock..only time could tell if a broken heart can be fixed and that uninvited replacement will forever be gone..

lastly, tick tock..I have no time for myself anymore..yes, I LOVE the kids to death..but even if I go out for an hour I feel so guilty leaving them..so sometimes I just stopped socializing with others..no more coffee sessions, no more movie nights, no more weekend getaways, no more mall walks or shopping spree..funny thing is, i work in a freaking shopping mall..but 9am-from car to office door-tag in..5.15pm from office door to car- tag out..i was just eager to get out from the office..

so again tick tock, whenever I have the ample time (lunch break, in between the office hours and when the angels have fallen asleep)..i blog hop and shop online... And I have decided to put trust on these people to supply me with good quality stuff without the element of touch..hey, pictures says a thousand word..most of my purchase are as I see them online..I've been cheated once in of my purchase so far..but nevertheless, i love online shopping..
so, point of my story is, I'm trying to win this competition http://www.kinkybluefairy.net/2011/12/azorias-grants-a-wish-to-a-kinkybluefairy-reader/#comments so that I can have any of these lovies from Azorias to call my own:

what do u think? nice right?

Green-eye-monster

Not good...
all my life, I have only be jealous of one person and one person only..my baby sis..she gets everything and anything..without even asking or working hard for it..well, coz she's the baby..it's the perks that comes with the status of being the youngest in the family..

Right now I envy those ppl who I studied with, those who have better job and career prospect..those who made the right choice..sigh, i vow to turn most negative to positive kan..? so hard to do.. my acca is now just a piece of paper, collecting dust, somewhere in my cabinet along with all other cert..i was told with that 4 letter word at the end of my name, my life is set..huh...

guess who's working :
1. tomorrow morning from 9am to 12 noon..3 hours that constitute to 1 day of AL if I decide to play hooky..
2. assigned to be MOD on Xmas Eve (fine, so what if I don't celebrate Xmas) and that's 3 pm to 9 pm..
3. on new year's eve, all exec have to show up for the countdown..seriously - Wil's bday is on the 31st..so until I move to another job..i may never EVER get to celebrate my son's bday..and I not into fireworks..and I can't stay up pass midnight..and going back at 4am doesn't sound like fun kan..

So, what's the positive thing that I can conclude from this post?
You tell me..

raindrops on roses & whiskers on kittens..

It’s that time of the month again..no not the menses. It the week after pay day. During these few days u feel like –

yes, I should treat myself with that,

hmmm, I feel like having sushi for lunch,

jom, let’s visit the flea mkt bazaar at e@ Curve..

ahaks..

Being a true accountant at heart (stingy & calculative), I always allocate some even if it’s only a little for my guilty pleasure.

Right now at the condition that I am in, I need to be a creative bargain hunter. I need to change my mindset that it’s not just the brand. Need to be street smart. Whatever the hell that means.

I need to keep myself in check..turned the negative to positive. I rarely reflect on myself I guess that’s y this happens. One step at a time, living day after day. Remembering Allah Almighty knows and listens to my heart. 

no money, no honey..

yup, i believe my other half had known this fact for a while now.. so we've been disagreeing on stuff these past few days..and i was giving him the classic silent treatment..when u get married throwing tantrum and trying to confront him with the problem just don't seem to work anymore..so it's the occasional yes, no, suka hati u la, xkisah phase...then yesterday, i succumbed..he offered to gave a little bit of shopping money..

yup, that's the end of that war..

now, where's that wishlist i've been compiling in my bb..

I'm babysitting..

Yes, i'm on baby sitting duty..for the next 5 days, i'll be taking care of my parent's Merc..this morning i drove within the limit, stayed away from the car in front of me and didn't squeeze in between the other car to get in the lane..I was the perfect, law abiding driver..

The point of my story this morning, you know when ur hanbag are too heavy when the Pls-put-on-ur-seat-belt signed lights up when u put ur handbag on the passenger's seat.. because my rusty old saga, doesn't have that indicator..know i will admit that my handbag is the cause of my swollen neck muscle...

those are the stuff in my handbag this morning..

1st

Haven't blogged in ages...I guess I'm also caught in the blogging trend..or maybe I just really needed to talk and make my two cents known to anybody who happens to be reading this..