Green-eyed?

So I stayed up pretty late one  night. I wanted to watch Victoria Secret 2011 runway show (HD & in full) on youtube..and I ain't watching it with the hubs..so i waited till he was snoring, put on the earphones and watch it..
Yup, other than the fact that I was jealous of the girls that was walking on the runway..I was amazed with Miranda Kerr..another angel, who manage to gave birth, breast feed and still be a gorgeous angel..my kind of hero, someone to look up to..her and Heidi Klum and her 4 kids and KLS, entrepreneur with the hectic life but still able to make time to breastfeed..so for that matter, i will persevere and push away the i-wanna-give-up feeling..

On the other note, I got a pretty exciting bbm from a pretty excited girl..who bought a pretty exciting thing..yes, i'm happy for ya..nope, not going to the shop, not even to cuci mata..so stop telling about the things that are in the shop sigh..sigh..sigh..

Save the cheerleader, save the world!

I'm my own cheerleader these days..Due to the fact that I'm very wary of those who are around me.. Don't know to what extend they are willing to listen or help.. I'm sorry, it's just that the recent incident traumatize me..

At the moment, i'm finding comfort in strangers or rather looking at other people who doesn't really relate to my daily life.. That gas station worker who handed me that pack of tissue - he is one I shall remember for the rest of my life. My comforting ice cream session with a fellow office mate - It makes me forget about the problem I have even just for an hour a day :)

I'm looking for that 'there's must be a reason for this' in everything and hope that I can stay positive all the time, for the sake or my kids and family, I just have to be..

So, to anybody who happen to come across this post, chin up, there's always a better day..
Mind over matters & load of prayers..
InsyaAllah..

tick tock goes the clock..

There's so many things that I can associate to the tittle..

One being, tick tock waiting for the clock to hit 12noon so that I can get home to the 2 angels..

next, tick tock..it 53 min into the office hour..here comes my-usually-MIA-supervisor..

then, tick tock..only time could tell if a broken heart can be fixed and that uninvited replacement will forever be gone..

lastly, tick tock..I have no time for myself anymore..yes, I LOVE the kids to death..but even if I go out for an hour I feel so guilty leaving them..so sometimes I just stopped socializing with others..no more coffee sessions, no more movie nights, no more weekend getaways, no more mall walks or shopping spree..funny thing is, i work in a freaking shopping mall..but 9am-from car to office door-tag in..5.15pm from office door to car- tag out..i was just eager to get out from the office..

so again tick tock, whenever I have the ample time (lunch break, in between the office hours and when the angels have fallen asleep)..i blog hop and shop online... And I have decided to put trust on these people to supply me with good quality stuff without the element of touch..hey, pictures says a thousand word..most of my purchase are as I see them online..I've been cheated once in of my purchase so far..but nevertheless, i love online shopping..
so, point of my story is, I'm trying to win this competition http://www.kinkybluefairy.net/2011/12/azorias-grants-a-wish-to-a-kinkybluefairy-reader/#comments so that I can have any of these lovies from Azorias to call my own:

what do u think? nice right?

Green-eye-monster

Not good...
all my life, I have only be jealous of one person and one person only..my baby sis..she gets everything and anything..without even asking or working hard for it..well, coz she's the baby..it's the perks that comes with the status of being the youngest in the family..

Right now I envy those ppl who I studied with, those who have better job and career prospect..those who made the right choice..sigh, i vow to turn most negative to positive kan..? so hard to do.. my acca is now just a piece of paper, collecting dust, somewhere in my cabinet along with all other cert..i was told with that 4 letter word at the end of my name, my life is set..huh...

guess who's working :
1. tomorrow morning from 9am to 12 noon..3 hours that constitute to 1 day of AL if I decide to play hooky..
2. assigned to be MOD on Xmas Eve (fine, so what if I don't celebrate Xmas) and that's 3 pm to 9 pm..
3. on new year's eve, all exec have to show up for the countdown..seriously - Wil's bday is on the 31st..so until I move to another job..i may never EVER get to celebrate my son's bday..and I not into fireworks..and I can't stay up pass midnight..and going back at 4am doesn't sound like fun kan..

So, what's the positive thing that I can conclude from this post?
You tell me..